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That sums it up. The kids are napping, I’m bored. I know I should be doing some sort of exercise because that’s what my body needs to shed this weight. Can’t procrastinate - just get it done. I know once I finish I will feel more energized and have a sense of accomplishment. There’s no question of “if” I’m going to do it so there is no time like the present, right?

I maintained again this week. I fought really hard to lose something. I just hope that my results will show next week. Just got to keep at it. I mentioned recently that I noticed a pattern to my lose/gain cycle. I typically lose weight when my husband is at work for two weeks and I gain it back when he comes home. Therefore, no real progress. He just came home so I am working really hard to lose some weight. That will break the cycle and hopefully give me some real momentum to keep it going.

 For those of you who asked - we are not relocating if my husband gets this new job. It is the same field of work he is now which means he works two weeks and then is off two weeks. He will just travel to the location where they need him and then he stays there until it’s time to come home.

 So anyway, I’m off to get moving. Get my muscles going, to feel better, stronger. Hope you will do the same!

For about a 3 weeks now my husband and I have been planning on a little trip to Houston just the two of us. He is interviewing with a big company for a higher position. So it was all set up, a big fancy, expensive room the company paid for and two days of alone time w/ no kids! Well the night before we were supposed to leave both of my little ones woke up - one vomiting the other with fever. Grrrrr……. I was supposed to get my hair done, a mani and a pedi then off to Houston by 12:00. Just my luck! So my husband reluctantly drove the four hours by himself, went to his interview at 9:00 and was home to pick up Kyle at football practice by 4:30. My mom was going to keep them for me and she still wanted me to go but there is no way I would leave my kids when they needed me most. Well, everything does happen for a reason because my mom calls me this morning and tells me she was up all night sick. So I was relieved I didn’t go because she would have had to deal with all that while she was sick. And, the interview went well so it looks like my husband has the job. That means he needs to go back to Houston next week to sign all the paperwork so maybe I’ll be able to go then.

 At least I was able to really focus on my diet and exercise this week. I really need a loss Saturday. I ‘ve been exercising everyday and my eating has been really good. So hopefully  my hard work will pay off.

 PS: I MISS YOU FITNESS FANATICS!!!! I haven’t been able to get into the forum for two days now and it’s driving me crazy!!!!! Hope you gals are doing great!

Good morning buddies. I hope all of you are well today. It is a gloomy day here - lots of rain but we need it soooo bad so I am thankful for it. I finally feel like I’m getting some self control back. I’m exercising everyday again and my eating is getting better. I’m still having a problem with the afternoon - like around 3:00 or 4:00. I want to just snack and I stop journaling and it all adds up. I need to get a handle on that. Like right now I am solid as a rock, nothing or no one could make me eat something unhealthy. But by this afternoon my inner strength will crumble and I eat up my profits. If I can get a handle on that I would be so successful. Just gotta keep at it. So for today my goals are:

• Drink all my water, at least 10 glasses
• Exercise, do team challenges
• Journal - all day long!
• Control snacking in the afternoon.
• Stay positive

 Have a wonderful day buddies! Don’t forget to smile!

 Okay, so I just had to share some pics of my little girl’s first day of school. I wasn’t as emotional as I thought I would be and she did not cry or hold on to my leg or anything like that. She was a big girl and she was so excited this morning when I woke her up. I was very proud of her. I am also proud of my oldest son Kyle who is in the 7th grade. When did that happen? It was just yesterday I was dropping him off for his first day of school.

Now that her first day has arrived and is nearly over I realized I had been having more anxiety about it than I thought. After I dropped her off at school I felt like a weight lifted off my shoulders and I’m getting my control back.

I made it through the weekend - three b-day parties and family members staying from out of town. One of the parties was my own. I passed on all the other birthday cakes just to have a slice of the lemon cake I knew my grandma was going to make me. She didn’t tell me but I just knew. It was totally worth it. So today I kinda feel like I’m in control again. The parties are over, time to get back in the game!

Thanks to the buddies who helped me learn how to put these pics on here!

Please someone tell me!

Hello buddies. I haven’t written a blog lately but I’ve been around reading blogs and chatting in the forum. I’ve got a pretty big weekend ahead. I have family visiting from N.O. and I have three b-day parties. That means lots of food to resist. I’ve got to do it though because I’ve had three weeks in a row where I’ve gained or maintained. If I indulge this weekend I’ll be back to the drawing board again. If I resist and eat well I’ll be back down to where I was a month ago. So, wish me luck all. I really think I will do well.

 Have a great weekend buddies!

I don’t know if I am crazy or just plain nuts but I have decided to go on a spur of the moment camping trip with my three kids, my mom, dad, sister and niece. My husband is at work for the next two weeks so I’ll be handling the kids by myself, with the help of my mom of course. And, I only have a few hours to pack! I’m notorious for making plans and chickening out at the last minute for whatever excuse. So for me to be doing this is just plain silly. Sometimes I think the best memories are made at the spur of the moment, that’s what I’m hoping for anyway!

 I have a plan of attack for my healthy living: Plenty of activity, there is a huge pool I will be swimming in most of the time, I brought my sister’s bike and plan on doing tons of riding, will try walking if my heel spur allows it. Won’t push that though because it is finally starting to heal. I know there will be some unhealthy snacks but for the most part my mom is good about buying the healthy stuff and I plan on drinking TONS of water. I will also bring my scale so I can weigh in on Saturday for my team - GO FANATICS! It seems like a lot of thinking just for a few days of fun, but I have to do it or who knows what would happen.

 Anyway, I’ll be MIA for a little while. I’ll be missing you guys and the first thing I’ll be doing when I get home is logging onto buddyslim!

All the good, positive choices I’ve made this week have been good for me so far. Duh! It’s only Tuesday but I feel better already. I’m getting the lighter feeling back. I did 60 laps in my pool yesterday. Wanted to take a nap but opted for the activity. I also ate out last night at a Mexican restaurant and chose to eat on the light side of the menu. Grilled chicken with a green salad. No, I did not want to eat that. I wanted to order something better, with a lot more fat. When I got my meal I was really satisfied and was so glad I did not go crazy, like usual. I have never ordered from the lighter side of any menu, so this was a big deal to me! I also got great inspiration from Catrina’s blog entitled How I’m doing it. I really took her words to heart because although I already know all the information in the blog, it was coming from a real person who was successful by doing the things she mentioned in the blog. I realized I’VE GOT TO DO THOSE THINGS! I printed it out and I will be reading it daily. It is really good.

 So anyway, just wanted to give an update on my progress. I need to get my butt in gear and start moving so I’m off for now!

Hello buddies. I wish I had this many friends in my life out of cyberspace. That would be so awesome. Well, start of a new week. New chances to make it right, eat healthy, get moving. I’m planning on doing it all. My husband leaves for work tonight so for the next two weeks it will be just me and the kids. I’ve noticed a trend that when he leaves for two weeks I lose weight but when he comes home for two weeks I gain weight. I’m not sure why but now that I’m aware of the timing of my yo-yoing I really need to focus on breaking it.

 I don’t know what has gotten into me the last couple weeks. I’ve just been shoveling the food in knowing all the well that I was counteracting all the hard work I’ve put in this summer. I’m sure if I really thought about it I could pinpoint the cause - anxiety over my little one starting school this year, my house and it’s never ending clutter, several other reasons. It’s just so hard to stay focused and motivated when you have so many outside forces in your life pulling at you in opposite directions. It’s much easier to stuff down my feelings with food that tastes good. I know that it isn’t healthy and I can’t lose weight doing that but in the moment I’m not thinking about it, I just feel good for a few minutes. Now I’m paying the price for stuffing the last couple of weeks and I’ve got to try really hard to get my groove going again.

So, this week, I will:

• Journal every bite I eat.
• At least three times a day revisit my goals and recall why I need to do this for myself. Hopefully this will keep the motivation going all day long.
• Drink 10 glasses of water daily.
• Exercise everyday.
• Stay positive.

I know that I can win this battle I’ve been fighting for so long. I’ve just got to keep at it and keep working on myself. Have a wonderful Monday everyone!

Yep, I’m forcing myself to write this blog because if I don’t I know I will continue to go nowhere with my weightloss. First let me say that I am very positive and upbeat today. I just have to get this out before I can move forward. I have gained four pounds. I was 216 two weeks ago, one pound away from my mini goal of 215, and I have gained four pounds. I did good on vacation but when I got back I slacked and didn’t put really any effort into my weight loss and because of my actions, or lack thereof, I have gained four pounds and now I am back in the 220’s. I really thought I would never see that set of numbers again but here I am. I can dwell on it and move even higher up in the numbers or I can get a grip and get this weight off. I’m definitely going to get a grip and get out of the 220’s as fast as I can. I don’t know why I sabatoge myself everytime I am within reach of my mini goal but I have done it about ten times since I’ve been here in March. And it is nothing new, I’ve done this for the last 12 years.

I read a blog the other day by Mark and the title really stuck with me : You get the body you exercise for. It made me think. I’m not happy with my constant yo-yoing but who is to blame? Me. I have not been exercising and journaling well and it shows. My poor efforts are producing poor results. I need to do better, I can do better and I WILL do better. 

My title is really about me wanting to hide from all my buddies who think I am so motivating and doing so well. I want to hide from my team because I feel like I am not contributing anything to them. Would they be better off without me? I am struggling really hard but I am not giving up. I just need everyone to stick with me because I need support to continue on with this journey. I know I can’t do it by myself. I had to write this today and admit my short comings so that I can get out of this funk and move on. I’m starting today, Saturday, so that by Monday I will hopefully be out of the 220’s and start the week on a positive note. You know, now that I think back on it, if I would have blogged about my struggles earlier would I have stopped my weight gain? Would I have only gained one instead of four? I really need to stop hiding when things aren’t going so well for me.

 Have a great day everyone! :):):):):)